On life and friendships

What is love? we all think that is a question that we can answer so easily. But is it? Is it really? Though every answer harnesses the shear awarness of loves existance it is rarely as beautiful as one could hope. Love to me is loyalty and the extended friendship of family. It a sensation which makes tears fall and your heart soar! But because love is like a bird. It often flies away. Leaving the softest white feathers at your feet. It seems on this warm evening I have loved and lost. Not the kind of love that ensnares passion or piety. But the kind of love that is required of a best friend.
For 11 years she was that. no other was revered more then her in my eyes. I gave to her my secrets my dreams and my ideas and she gave me hers. I have failed I guess but in her eyes I am selfish and spiteful. Yet, I am nothing more then I was on the day we met. Just me . My ideas may have changed a bit with the years but my hopes my dreams and my vision have stayed the same.
Like her I have had a family and sometimes Dreams get entangled with
bathtime and meal making. But I have always tried to make time for my best friend. I may, I supposive be what she implied. Yet I am blind. I stumble back on the last few weeks looking for the day I made the mistake. I think about each time I called and she was too busy or was not available and I try to think what , dear goddess did I do wrong.
And now I see as my eyes are no longer blinded with the veil of stupidity that to some love is expendable and means nothing if it does not suit the needs of that person. Friends are expendable and so now is family. I will never be the person to let my friends drift when I am needed most. I promise now that here forth I will love with my all and I know that one day my soul will be thrown to the side out of shallow miscontempt ..But i will not let this stop me. There are people in this world who love the same way I loved. and there are others who are not capable at all. I as of this time will never choose the person who cannot love me for who I am. I will choose only those who can see me through the eyes of an equal. Who enjoys my creativity and passion for life. as I would enjoy thiers. Let me stop now as this post is begining to sound like a want ad. haha!
But remember we all have one friend no matter how lonely we are . I am my friend and you are yours.

CHEERS
Lynda and Heather! Thank you for moral support and for the walks !
Mandy~ for trying ....I know your intentions were good. But hey now I know!
Rod~ I love you
Sonia~Damn I couldn't spell it again! You have come so far this last month! I'm proud of you! Keep it up! You rock .. By the way it is 10 pm want a cappucino?
Jodie and Gabe~ Water implies emotion. Thank you for making my emotions pure! and watch the rest of the movie! you'll like it!

JEERS
Bob~ Ummmm can I please have my coat back now? LOL boooo
awwweeee nobody really should go here


FINAL WORDS>.
In my eyes you will find my soul , I will share it but it is delicate so please be gentle. (whisper) to the sky I reach for heaven and my love abounds to the earth and her creatures let me take you with me.